Lost for thoughts, lost for the form of sleep too..
My room feels uncomfortable because i havent been here in so long, i dont like it.
Im tired but i cant sleep, i feel weirdly lonely because noone is in, and this is something that worries me, not the fact the noone is home, but the fact its beginning to affect me. I have a strange feeling that some form of a phobia is developing, a phobia of being alone?
As soon as i am i shut down, get bored, lonely, and somewhat depressive. I find myself trying to find things to keep myself active and kill time alone..
I realise this combined with my last few blogs portray me as a frighteningly morbid person..
Hmm, something to think about also.
I dont know where my life is going.
I dont know whether to re-start college, i dont know how to go about psychology without college or uni, i dont know if i want to do the latter, fuck i dont even know if i want the first. I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING.
This scares me. A lot.
Im 18 in under three weeks, and i have nothing to show for it.
AHHH.
I dont even feel like doing anything for my birthday :/
I dont know what i want.. I dont know how i want to spend it..
All i know is that il be at college.
Fuck.
What am i going to do?
My life has come to a standstill.
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