Hmmm.

Its amazing how a good mood can change in an instant and then back to the instant again where you feel fine..
Earlier i fell asleep, and woke up in an awful mood, almost created an argument and just generally felt shit about everything.
I decided to take a wander to see if my mood progressed back to something enjoyable. I listened to bombay bicycle club and then casually strolled. On the way a random girl asked me for a lighter, and though the smallest thing, it made me smile for some reason.
Anyhoo, after a casual walk i ended up at home, chatted to my mum and then went back out.
I feel so much better for it i must say.
I dont understand the feeling of expectation for destruction, someone close seems to expect me to suddenly change my mind and 'ditch' them. This is completely random i know, but its just sprung to mind.
Im feeling inspired to write today, i just dont have much else to say, and i never really get the ambition to do this when i have the most on my mind.
Its strange to think that a few months back, different decisions could have changed my life and i could be somewhere very different right now.

Also, i just burnt my filters, rizla and empty baccy pouch. I have two rollies left, and i cant shake the feeling of the fact im now, well, hopefully, going to be smoke free..
I dont know how il deal with the stress if im honest
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