Hmmm.

Its amazing how a good mood can change in an instant and then back to the instant again where you feel fine..
Earlier i fell asleep, and woke up in an awful mood, almost created an argument and just generally felt shit about everything.
I decided to take a wander to see if my mood progressed back to something enjoyable. I listened to bombay bicycle club and then casually strolled. On the way a random girl asked me for a lighter, and though the smallest thing, it made me smile for some reason.
Anyhoo, after a casual walk i ended up at home, chatted to my mum and then went back out.
I feel so much better for it i must say.
I dont understand the feeling of expectation for destruction, someone close seems to expect me to suddenly change my mind and 'ditch' them. This is completely random i know, but its just sprung to mind.
Im feeling inspired to write today, i just dont have much else to say, and i never really get the ambition to do this when i have the most on my mind.
Its strange to think that a few months back, different decisions could have changed my life and i could be somewhere very different right now.

Also, i just burnt my filters, rizla and empty baccy pouch. I have two rollies left, and i cant shake the feeling of the fact im now, well, hopefully, going to be smoke free..
I dont know how il deal with the stress if im honest
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Summer

I cant believe its already been two weeks of summer so far, ive done multiple retarded things, and i havent written to this blog in ages.

So we went to this party in sway, and it was nice to be outside of my normal social group, and to escape the boredom of hythe and its ways.. Although i wasnt drinking at this party, it was still quite good. Catching up with people i hadnt seen in ages was nice to do, and also watching a load of messheads stumbling around. During the course of the night i managed to lock my mates keys in his car, luckily his sister came to drop off the spare, but was NOT happy :/

That night marked the first time i tried a cannabis lolly. It was actually quite good, along with a few J's it made me slightly high and i was loving life.

The next day however, me and the womans mothers met for the first time, as we went to hers for a barbecue. I guess it was a good night for our mums, because they seemed to somewhat enjoy making embarrassing comments and sniggering. Needless to say we bailed out and went inside. The next time i heard from them was one of jordans mates asking me to come down and carry my mum inside. 

Oh, and yes, the reason being my mum and everyone there had been smoking 'on'. She and nikki had already had between 2 and 4 bottles of wine, and the reason i was summoned was because my mum had been passed out for two hours by this point.. Yay. Im kind of glad she had a good night, but also quite embarrassed.

The past week has been good, and im enjoying having the time off, i can wait to meet a few people over the next 6 weeks to catch up and see whats new.

I dont really know what else i can say, im just quite happy at the moment (:

Ah, infact, i dont know how long that will last, as the main thing on my mind at the moment is giving up smoking. I said i would give up after i run out of this pouch, and as much as i want to stick to that, i regret it already. Im roughly 4 or 5 rollies away from being smoke free..

However, i now have my gym membership, which means i have 12 months of stress relief, bulking out and self esteem improving.. (hopefully..)

NIGHPFDNVDFNGUH

Im generally excited about having it, catch yarrr soooon (:

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Annoyance

As you know fellow readers, i posted a blog before of me annoying this guy..
I got a round two ;)


bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 i didnt block you twat
aidén. says:
 aww babe, chill out
 its been such a long time
 we havent spoken
 and you come out with that?
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 good.
 dont ever want a reason to talk to you really
aidén. says:
 oh well thats just silly
 holding a grudge is bad
 i thought we were friends
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 no told you last time
 no one that takes charlie is my friend really
aidén. says:
 oh well thats a shame, a) because i didnt take her, and b) because youre a downer :')
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 you did take her, she liked you, alot. a downer? thats my sister. literally so shut the fuck up you spastic cunt
aidén. says:
 i did not take her, otherwise i wouldve been with her.. i cant help her liking me and finding you repulsive my love..
 thats unfortunate, but i dont think il shut up im afraid
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 should have shrugged her off.
aidén. says:
 were too good friends
 why would i shrug her off?
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 maybe because you didnt like her back
aidén. says:
 well yeh, but she knew i wasnt looking for anything, just because we werent together it doesnt mean shed like you miraculously again, or that i 'took her off you'
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 we had our ups and downs but she'll always love me
aidén. says:
 clearly not..
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 you dont know.....SHIT?
aidén. says:
 i dont see how she could love someone who smells like beef and cheese
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 so stay out of it
 beef and cheese?
 you dont know me
aidén. says:
 and you dont know me.. so why accuse me of things you 'dont know shit' about..?
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 because i know certain things
aidén. says:
 hmm
 did you know that youre a hypocrite?
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 how?
aidén. says:
 telling me i know fuck all about what youve done, when you clearly know less about me than i do you
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 how do you know stuff about me?
aidén. says:
 because i have bat like ears, and eagle eyes, im a morpher.. ive been compared to the spiderman of my generation il have you know
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 fail on your behalf darling
aidén. says:
 ooo darling, im glad were getting close
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 getting close?
 getting close to me messing your face up
aidén. says:
 hahahahahaha
 ok babe, if you like
 i do know youre quite the violent type
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 and how would you know that?
aidén. says:
 unfortunately controlling it didnt seem to be a part..
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 what the fuck has charlie told you
aidén. says:
 who says it was charlie? it may have been my bat ears and eagle eyes
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 .
aidén. says:
 oh no
 a full stop
 i like full stops il have you know
 its commas that offend me
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 really.
 its showing the end im afraid
aidén. says:
 of our bromance?
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 of this fukcing conversation
 *fucking
aidén. says:
 clearly not.. cos youre still talking..?
 wreeeyyy
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 bye.
aidén. says:
 nooooooooooo!!!
 im afraid im weeping
 dont break my heart like this
 il leave you to cool off babe
 call me
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 dont have your number.
aidén. says:
 ah babe, thank god you came back, you said it was the end?!
bartlett1@live.co.uk says:
 yeah it is now
 although
 haha
aidén. says:
 ahhh, youre pulling my strings arent you you joker  
 i know you miss me really


Blocked. Again. Shame, i miss him :(
x

Meh?

I guess im tired so im just overreacting, but im in an awful mood now.
It would seem im not trusted to be told stuff, well, more to the point, not a comfortable enough face, which i was kind of hoping i was.
Now im sat on my own, while my own *girlfriend* is in a different room, with three of my mates socialising. Great.
I should also add, i was left in my mates house on my own while those four went off to tesco.. Was i consulted or even asked to go? No.
The only thing said to me was 'you dont mind staying here do you?..'
What the fuck. Ugh.
It just seems well out of order, i cant even be fucked to stay here if im honest, im just sat like a fucking loner, drinking and not talking to anyone, other than on facebook on my laptop.
This has royally pissed me off.
Fuck sake.

Oh, and none of them have even come in to ask if i was ok..
Including her

So..

Well the situation all worked out, so im happy about that (:
Ive had a good past week or two, its been great..
Today i didnt do much, worked out some stuff in sport, and ive got a whole new project for next year to do :/
Weve got some guy 'lodging' in our room for the next week or two, i said i was fine about it, but this could be kind of weird..
Haha, i really have nothing decent to say, but im proper bored, and theres nothing to do :|
x

For The Lulz

The title kind of describes my weekend..
Yesterday i had work in the morning, and it was shit boring, and again today, noone came in, like, at all.
It was pretty shit.
But after work yesterday i went to a mates, and spontaneously got high, kept it mediocre and everything was just fucking amazing really. I had a right laugh and a good day.
About 7 o'clock i went to meet kaeli, still slightly high and trying to avoid showing it, anyway, we went back to hers and watched 300, after which i decided to go outside for a fag.
This probably wasnt the smartest idea, as the remaining THC burned and gave me a head rush again, and once more i was a bit high :L
Luckily the lounge had no lights on, so the whole pupil thing wasnt too obvious.
I ended up walking home at about 2, and just felt satisfied, that id actually done worthy things with my day.
(:
I knackered today though, went to work, went to the gym, and about to leave soon for a party, so im really hoping i actually wake up for college tomorrow, cos if i miss any more of it im fucked :L
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Crazy

I think now things have begun to turn around.
Completely out of the blue ive gone from a lost hope to a renewed sense of confidence..
I dont know where the situation is actually going, but it does feel good to go to bed smiling again (:

Yesterday me and my mate went on a crazy endeavour, which in the least was stupid and epically illegal.
After getting in at 3 the night before, i decided i couldnt be fucked with college.
Woke up, went to the gym, and then spoke to my mate sam.
His new car was meant to be being delivered to his house, yet they decided they couldnt drop it off.
Then, we had the smart idea, in a jokey sense, to go and pick it up.
He suggested it to me, and i said itd be quality, and that we should do it..
At this point, i should probably note, he wasnt the named owner of the car as of yet, and he hadnt driven in about two months, also, he wasnt insured on the car..
It was illegal on so many levels.
SO, we went to town, picked it up, and drove it home.
It was so sketchy, we were shitting it every time we saw police, and to add insult to injury we stopped for a mcdonalds :')
I have to say, it was one of the most exciting days, nervous laughter was all i could really use to portray my thoughts, and pulling it off felt so amazing.
So now im above the law, im a rebel. Hahaha.
It was honestly an epic day.
I dont really know what else to write, but the past week has been really good
Chow fo' Now.
x