Free Chlamydia Boxers ♥

Oh i love them, if you took a clap test at college you got free tshirts, boxers or a sperm key ring.

I actually love the boxers i got, and i know i dont have clap so its a win win :')

Saying that, if by some really strange and confusing circumstance, i do have it, i will be fucking annoyed.

Theyre white with a pink wasteband, i couldnt find a picture..

They also gave me two free condoms and a little thing of lube..

I always have two condoms in my wallet anyway, so it was pretty fat today :L

The joys.

I also had the shortest work shift in the world, got there, was told it was cancelled, clocked back out and went home.

Thats a lie, we went to tesco first and i got easter eggs. Yum.

Im feeling better today, im more awake and feel fresh.

Powww.

Im offski.

x

Fuck It Man

My day has been so boring, i barely slept at all last night, which made it worse.

I had to get the early bus in because i had pe lectures all day. They were boring.

So im officially knackered. Only got a shitty gym sesh in so i dont feel accomplished, had a shit evening because ive been lethargic. The DVLA are still fucking my license about, and i still cant drive.

Im just so tired today, i cant be arsed talking and i really need to.

I dont know what it is, but i just feel proper tired and depressed :/

It sucks balls man. I need to get out and about, i need to sleep, i need to relax.

Agh.

x

Ive Discovered Something..

I found i do some of my best work when im completely mellowed out. I cant be in a good mood, i cant be in a bad mood, i need to be well and truly blank of emotion. I was in a weird mood last night, and i did this picture:

Do feel free to comment making any points about it, anything you like or dont. Or even maybe if you have suggestions for something youd like me to draw. I guess im just curious as to who ACTUALLY reads this. However, do bear in mind its not finished yet, and once i have completed it il post another picture.

(:

Today was good, college was boring, classics was cancelled, we couldnt get in the gym, my bus took ages to get home and i was fucking tired. I know what youre thinking, that sounds shit.. BUT, i went to the sauna after college, and it was LUSH. The mood it leaves you in after is amazing, de-stressed and without a worry in the world. Aswell as chatting to my mate about everything, and getting it all off our chests. So its been pretty epic if im honest. Also, ONE WEEK 4 DAYS. ONE WEEK 3 DAYS TOMORROW.

Im sure you know what i mean :|

Bedtime.

Love love

x

Well Have You Got A Story To Tell?

LOVE that song at the moment, story to tell, by get cape. wear cape. fly

Its lush.

Pretty alright day today, not bad, only one lesson, which was annoying though.

OH SWEET JESUS ITS THE SKI TRIP IN A WEEK AND 4 DAYS.

Im soooooo excited, and i need to vent on here because im proving a point that i can stay off facebook for an entire week. I therefore cannot vent my excitement to anyone else.. :/

My mum has just gone for a drive, shes upset about something to do with my dad. As much as i dont like to see her cry, i try and avoid her when she does. Its awkward when someone cries, but if theyre my friend il support them. Problem is i cant stand drama queens, and shes such a fucking cry baby. SHE is the one who filed for divorce, so whats the point in crying over something youve brought upon yourself? Ive learnt over the past few years if you make a mistake the worst thing to do is dwell on it.

You fuck yourself over again and again, and it doesnt help.

Sort it out love.

Anyhoo, so basically i have no form of contact via my laptop, and im not a phone-call-asking-for guy, i enjoy them occasionally but im not one to admit to bonds and gaining joy out of such things. So im happily sat in my dead quiet house on my own for now, listening to moosic. I think i might do some drawing if im honest.

Green ipod earphones came through today, sexxyyyy.

Anyhoo, im away my lovers

(:

x

Its Been A Whileiooh..

This blog has been a pretty desolate place lately. I did intend to get a rolling hay bail picture like the old western films, but i couldnt find one.. So i settled with this. (:

I guess i havent really made time for this, but i do enjoy getting my thoughts down every now and then before the fade out and become nothing more than the desolation of this picture, an empty and unknown state..

Skiing is in about two weeks, and i am FUCKING excited. Like, unbelievably. Ive spent some of the past week downloading a hell of a lot of music, i went from 400 on my old ipod to over 1000 on my brothers that im borrowing, all in two days. Its quality.

When 'getting down' to things, i think weve been sussed a few too many times for my liking lately, it doesnt bother me too much, but when seems feel awkward with the parents after im always really conscious, today was blatant as you like, and it made it a tense kind of atmosphere in the car. But to be honest, it was worth it.

I met the strangest man on the train this morning, basically, the only way to describe him is a druggy. But, possibly one of the soundest men ive ever met as a stranger..

It all happened when i sat down, and he sat on the tabled section where i was too. This guy is currently suffering from insomnia, he has tried every drug you can think of, shrooms, heroin, crystal meth, crack, pot, ecstasy. You name it, hes done it.. He got left by his wife when she was pregnant, which sent him off the loop, and he was in and out of a mental institute for 6 years. Got addicted to prescription drugs by the doctors to get him off meth, then crack, and now hes finally clean other than a bit of pot now and then, or a couple of pills. He was a huge danny dyer fan, and in the nicest way possible wasnt all there.

But he was a complete legend, we had a massive conversation, and its fulfilled me, ive got another bit of drive to do what i want in life, i know where i want to be, and meeting someone like that has helped them a bit. It sounds stupid but this guy made a mark on my mind.

He also said about the long term affects of drugs. All in all it was a really interesting conversation, and i enjoyed it. I can honestly say i enjoyed it.

Oh, and he gave me an umbrella..? :/

Hahaha, what a dude (:

Im also really happy at the moment, ive got all i need in life, and i love it.

Peace out bravaaa (:

x

Boredom.

Its like a drug, a narcotic, inducing, drug like effect. It ruins your thoughts, it contaminates your judgement, it sways your actions. It makes you grumpy.

Im tired, im bored, and i cant help but get annoyed over nothing. Well i say annoyed, im not annoyed as such, but i just get to the point where i cant be fucked with trying anymore.

Its a disease that slowly melts away your brain, if you let it manifest it becomes the object of all reverse desirability, it makes you over-think things, it makes you slowly drive yourself down. If youre bored and upset, tired or depressed, you need someone to guide you away from it, you need something to do, you need the art of good conversation. Im bored, and tired. I have none of these.

The art of conversation is lost in the un-meaningful delusion of 'chat'. Chat is not talk, chat is the willy nilly of a shit conversation. Neither of you are entertained, the subject is of no interest. 'Hey, how are you? What you up to? Yawnyawnyawn.'

I hate having someone you can have amazing conversations with, and then after progressing losing that comfortability, and feeling you 'should' (another important word) talk about something better. That is one aspect that worries me when i find someone i like, i dont want to lose their friendly persona in the midst of knowing you have something to lose. I saw a sentence earlier: things are more fun when you know you have nothing to lose (i dont believe it when exactly like that, but i cant remember where i saw it), but its relevant.

As soon as you realise youre in deep, you notice what there is to forfeit in the midst of your actions, its not in your control anymore.

Again, should. You 'should' do something, when do we ever do what we should? Some of us never, some of us too much. Few people are in the middle, with the correct balance of a healthy ego. Theres too much to consider, and we no longer have a hand in our choices when we do what we 'should', and feel obliged to do so.

Sorry to waffle.

x

Interesting Few Days..

Plant Your Hope With Good Seeds, Dont Cover Yourself With Thistle And Weeds..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_YJhmGKTxk

I guess i started thinking about it properly in philosophy the other day, as we had a really intriguing discussion on determinism. And someone mentioned something about this book called 'the secret'. Basically, from what i gather this book tells you to map out your life, and think of your dream house etc, and if you follow this plan then one day it will all happen as youve mapped it. This all sparked off the subject of healing and miracles. The thing is, if you believe something enough, for example christians and god, then you are willing to follow anything it has to offer. If youre willing to believe someone is healing you, then psychologically you may end up feeling healed. I argued that this book doesnt really work. My view on it, is basically, if you have enough motivation to do something, you will do. If you have the pure desire to get this dream house, you will work hard to get it. If you have the pure desire to go somewhere in life you will. This book isnt some mystical force, its not some god-given talented man who wrote it.. Sure, hes clever, but still, the same applies when you dont attempt to get places, you crash and burn. So many people lack direction in life, and this is how they end up in places they dislike.
This is why that song line comes in to mind, i was on the bus home, and was listening to a bit of good old mumford & sons, when the song thistle and weeds came on. That line really stood out to me, and i feel i need to consider what i really want before i go out and reach for it. This way i can avoid being stranded in a psychological battle of what i want and need, and i can live life to the full.
I believe if i can manage to decide what this is, and where i want to be in the next few years, and so on, i can manage it, and really go places, because il have something to work for. (:

Today is wednesday, its been one day since that revelation, and im bloody ill. Haha, i hate it, its just making me tired, and lethargic. I hope im better soon, but i doubt il be going to college tomorrow. So if i over think its guaranteed il be on here.

Another thing i decided today, i really HATE being shunned for a mobile phone. I guess it annoys me, because you spend time with someone to do that, and even though i may be a bit ill, and not very talkative (i tend to say something if it has importance, because theres so many random bits of information in my mind noone cares about..), but if the person youre spending your time with is texting other people, it really starts to piss me off. I tried not to let it show, and i guess it was lucky i was ill as i had a reason. But if you want to be somewhere else, with other people, or you want to talk to them instead of me, fucking go. Dont humour me :/
Im not angry, just frustrated. I dont like being shunned, or feeling unimportant.. It belittles me, and i just find it really rude.

I also miss the conversation of some of the newer friends i made over the new year cross over, they were nice, well, still are.. But hm, made me happy i guess? Ah well (:
x