Valentines Day = Valentines Is GAY

I find it so overrated, im not in to the whole lovey shit, especially not after the past year. Its really not my thing any more. The extent we went to this year was a card. I was happy with that, and spending the day with her. But for something im so against it actually turned out really nicely. We just spent the entire day talking, listening to music and whatnot. It was pretty epic.
I forgot how amazing the female body is, this sounds weird, but its not even the sexuality of it, im talking about the dip in the back, the curve above the hip, the smoothness of the shoulders. That sounds so perverted, but what im trying to say, is to have a good time with a girl you dont need to be having sex. The feeling of pure comfort, where you dont need to say anything, you dont need to do anything, you can just look in to each others eyes. Its strange, and kind of overwhelming.
It scares me.
I guess sometimes i take for granted things like that, but i feel i can distinguish the difference between the two. Unlike some.
I dont think commitment is the problem, i have no problem with it, im not one of the guys that pressures a girl in to stuff, i dont use them, i dont know what it is, but im just scared of getting attached? I dont want to be cut down again.
Enough of the soppy shit. But i needed to say that, and theres not enough appropriate people to say it to.
I think the change over from 2009 to 2010 has been amazing. Ive met some brilliant new people, and im so glad i have. Each and every one of them has made my life that bit better, and i want to thank them. The problem is i dont know how? I cant go up and say 'thanks for making my life better' can i now?.. Ah, id look like SUCH a tool. I just hope i can make them feel better, or help them out when they need me? Its on my to do list this year. Aswell as kill the DVLA..
Saturday was football day, and im not a football guy, but this was saints pompey, so i really got in to it. Pompey won 4-1 :(
Letdown.
That day i was drinking from 12 til about half 10 at night, and sat smoking my life away, and chilling to some tunes for the mostpart. I had a great day, and then woke up the next morning with a rager of a headache.
Ive had a good weekend. Its half term now, and i intend to make the most of the break from college.
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