Knackered

I am officially destroyed. Last night i went to be later than normal, and i only slept for 4 hours before waking up in the early hours of this morning. Needless to say today was EXHAUSTING, and i was wearing shoes too small for me, that didnt keep my feet warm, and hurt them :/
Its 10 to 9 and im already considering bed within the next half an hour if something exciting doesnt happen. Tonight has been a bore, and i had to make my own dinner. However, i love my new phone so it hasnt been too bad. Ive been dowloading new music too (:
On a deeper note, as i so tend to go in that realm of audacity with my emotions, which to be honest i find this blog has allowed me to do.. Its easier to talk to a wall than it is in person, i find it less intimidating. Im more intimidated of emotional attachment than anything physical, and ive been described as 'really intimidating for such a small person' < Lol.
I think lately ive found whats fulfilled me, ive mentioned in previous blogs i found myself unhappy cos i had nothing to look forward to anymore, noone, more to the point. Now ive found someone i can relate to, and have fun with, and share moments with i think im finally on the way to completing myself as a person again. Over the past few days ive noticed a big change in myself, ive been much happier, and people have noticed. (:
I no longer feel i need to redeem myself for the last relationship i had, it ended badly, i felt awful, and i moped for months. It was a big hit to be honest, and i do still think about the memories, which is kind of sad, but i guess i miss the person she was. This isnt in a 'i miss her way', but more of an optimistic view on the fact i have the chance to make new memories, maybe even better ones? I now have the chance to ensure in my own capacity i dont make the same mistakes, i can channel my energy in to making someone else happy, and by being the best i can be. When im alone it doesnt tend to work like that, and i feel when i have that positive influence on me i genuinely am a better person..
I think its time to show it. (:
(I told you id do a proper one, so gulp it down readers :D)
{..If i even have any LOL}
Catch ya ;)
x