Fucking Grr.

Why is it some people have the urge to be complete cunts (yes, strong, but relevant) to you when all you are is nice. Why?! Just why?
It really pisses me off. Fucking agh. Im in such a shit mood.
Is this really what my life has dissolved in to? We have the most spontaneous 3 and a half days give to us away from college, and toward the end it all funnels in to boredom and anger.
Is my life that shit it has to do this? I have nothing to do, nowhere to go. I cant go cycling because of the ice, noone is out, theres nothing on tv, and my brother is a cunt.
Have i that little ambition in my life that i feel compelled to sit in front of this laptop wasting my life away? Im in this sort of mood : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTnJwcyRQsY&feature=related Argh. I hate being in such a shit mood. But it revolves around me.
I hate these mad depressive feelings. Its been so long since ive got this angry over something so little. But its when theres nothing to do that it amounts in to nothing..
Am i that unreliable in myself that i cant control what happens in my own life? I manage to steer my decisions away from anything i want. I wont revise because im lazy, i wont tell anyone how i feel emotionally because im scared of the outcome, i wont invest my time in anything worthwhile because i dont have the drive to stick at it! Im a fucking failure.
Argh. All i want to do right now is shout.